Sunday Selah ~ Striving and Resting
The reason I plan so much is because I have this crazy notion that I can control the outcome. I sincerely believe that if I have all my bases covered then nothing can go wrong. As if it's not possible that something beyond my control might affect the special day, I drive myself insane, striving to create a perfect gathering.
I'm wrong. My attempt to control everything does nothing but upset my life and my household. Approaching life in this manner completely circumvents God and His role. I'll admit that I've thought God would just go along with my plans and He'd assist me in making everything go smoothly. I'm blushing at this ridiculous thought. I'm so sorry Father.
My life has recently spiraled out of control as we've learned that my infant grandson needs a heart transplant and we are currently waiting for a donor. He's in a very serious situation and it's really frightening for all of us. I can't control any of it. I'm learning quickly that I need to learn to submit and rest in my Father's care. I need to stop scurrying and striving. I need to be still and know that HE is God!