God wants me to do WHAT?
For over ten years, I've known God was calling me into women's ministry. I'm not sure what the full vision will look like, but I know I've been called to write, to speak, and to teach. When I initially felt that nudge, I was not certain that I was hearing God correctly. How could I be the used by God when I was such an unschooled, flawed, mess of a person?
At the time, I was a single mother with no education beyond high school and no public speaking experience. I'd never written anything except for some journaling and creative writing as a young teen. I'm also not one of the "churchy" women that attend Christian women's meetings. I tend to be a little too outspoken, too impulsive, and I have little patience for nonsense. I told myself that I was not hearing God correctly.
None the less, I told God that I'd do whatever was asked of me as long as He showed me the way. I've since earned a master's degree, written three books and for the past four years, I've been teaching at a college. While I don't have the opportunity (yet) to teach on the Word of God, I've been gaining valuable experience public speaking and learning to engage an audience. If you asked me to write, teach, and speak TODAY, I'd readily agree. It's not much of a stretch since I'm already doing this.
God, in His infinite wisdom, prodded me in this direction when it made no sense to my carnal mind. I didn't resist it. I submitted and said, "I don't understand it, but show me the way and I'll go." Now, I can look back and smile because of how He laid it all out. I know that His hand was on me the whole way and now I'm even more excited to see what's coming.
If God is calling you to do something, I encourage you to TRUST Him. He's the potter. Be the willing clay that doesn't fight with its maker. Allow Him to shape and use you. Trust that you might not be able to see how it will all happen, and that's perfectly alright.